Whenever you find yourself doubting how far you can go, just remember everything you have faced, all the battles you have won and all the fears you have overcome.
Today Felix and I hit the road to do another day of marathon training, even though it has been snowing here since the early morning and the sidewalks are very icy and snow covered. I figured that after one lap he would be ready to throw in the towel, even though he had such a terrific run the other evening, the conditions were much different today. I am ashamed to say that I underestimated him (I really should have known better.) Instead, we finished lap one and I gave him the option of going home or trying out a new route. He chose the latter.
We continued on with our run, slipping around and braving the cool wind. When I could tell he was starting to doubt his choice to take a different path, I turned the tables and started in with the pep-talking he’s famous for. I told him that if I held his hand I could transfer some of my strength to him so that he could continue running. This helped. To help him dig deep, we picked landmarks to run to. Once we arrived, we got to take a walk break. We held hands for quite some time. And again, when I could tell that his confidence was fading, that he was getting more tired, more sore and really wanted to quit, that’s when we started talking about all the things he had accomplished so far and how strong he was to be out in these conditions.
Then the coolest thing happened: he let go of my hand and ran on his own. As his mother, it humbled me & made me so incredibly proud to watch him dig deep and keep going, even when it wasn’t ‘fun’ anymore.
Aside from the entertainment that is Felix just being Felix, I love the conversations we have while running – they are about as random as they come. One minute we’re talking about bees hibernating and the next he’s telling me about how his lego men (which he smuggled into his vest pockets) give him good luck and strength while he’s out running. I am so proud of this kid & I am so grateful that I get to spend this time with him.
Next run is a 3.5 mile one. Starting to get longer. Hopefully I’ll get faster. Until then…